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Friday, September 27, 2013
When I was younger I always thought that falling in love would be a happy thing. I honestly believed that the love you feel for one another was all that ever mattered. But as I got older I realize that that's not always the case, even now we are lost in the Twilight wondering if the clarity of the morning would ever come. My innocent childhood but a memory.
Tired of suffering I feel like I could lose all control. I can feel myself slowly slipping away into this dark abyss of depression. The light at the end of the tunnel slowly fades away as I think to myself "Is this all just a dream or am I finally being consumed by these twisted emotions?"
Sleep has no meaning to me anymore.
As the time ticks on my mind wanders away from existence.
Where am I?
Total darkness is all I see.
Could this finally be the end of me?
Have I finally been free from the suffering?
I awaken from this paradise back to the living hell we call life.
Furious I reach for my blade
wondering if this Should this be the end
Should I give into the emotional temptation?
I'll either thinking about everything as the mental thoughts flash in my mind.
Is it worth it? Should I just end it all right now?
I tear up as I think of everything I been through, everything I resent doing.
As I press the blade against my skin I wish for release.
How bad I want it
The images of blood fill me with hatred
The hatred I have against myself
I can't do this..
I can't just hurt everyone I love..
I need help.